Monday, 6 March 2017



Whenever Lenten Season  comes around, as Catholics, we focus on Prayer, Fasting and Almsgiving.  Often, it is a priority just for this sacred season and then we go back to our normal lives. Usually our almsgiving is just in the form of cash donations - often forgotten quickly as there is no personal God-experience involved.

The longer I have been in ministry, the more strongly I feel in my heart that charity is more than just supporting financially. Our heart must have a God-experience where we feel an inner transformation and renewal.   As a Christian, you and I must also give of our time and talent - to feel and understand how the poor and needy are just like you and me - human beings who are undergoing hardships and crying out to God or who are in utter hopelessness. We need to reach out in a personal and caring way to the marginalized in our society who are suffering and struggling to help them experience a life of dignity, hope and most of all, God's Love.

Just writing a cheque or donating cash can be quite painless and it may not really touch, awaken or transform our own hearts in a tangible way to reach out in love because we do not have a personal God-experience. I had been discussing this issue with some friends in Hong Kong, Malaysia and Singapore  the past few years. We all expressed the desire to have that personal touch in our giving - like being part of a mission outreach or in helping the needy locally in our own community. I am a firm believer in this Promise of the Word of God - "Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."  (Luke 6:38)  In my own personal experience, God is ever-generous to anyone who willingly and joyfully supports those in need irrespective if it is an initiative within a parish or not. We are called to care for the poor and needy regardless of their race, religion, gender or even which country they live in. God's Providence is limitless to  the giver too!

If you are like me (when I was pursuing my career), often we have good and noble intentions to volunteer our time and talent at least once a week. The problem is that often we do not know which organization we can approach to help the poor and the needy in our community. Then we are too busy and the good intention is forgotten until the next Christmas or Lenten season. Our intention to help those in need must become a tangible Faith in Action. Perhaps now is the time to begin.

Jesus said, "Truly I tell you, just as you did not do it to one of the least of these, you did not do it to me." (Matthew 25:45)

I hope the list below of various organizations having an outreach to the needy In terms of Food Bank, Soup Kitchens (Meals for the Poor) or Suspended Meal Programmes (Paying Forward for a Meal for the Needy) will be useful for you to volunteer or even as a weekly family mission initiative with your children of sharing God's Love.



FEEDING HONG KONG (HK Registered Charity IR No: 91/11636)
Unit 715-17, Block A2
Yau Tong Industrial City,
17-25 Ko Fai Road,
Yau Tong,
Hong Kong
Tel: +852 2205 6568

Feeding Hong Kong is the first Hong Kong food bank dedicated to rescuing surplus nutritious food from retailers, distributors and manufacturers and redistributing it to people in need. Our task is to fight hunger in Hong Kong and at the same time reduce the amount of quality food that is being sent to our city’s landfills.

At the same time, we work tirelessly to raise awareness about poverty and food insecurity in Hong Kong and promote healthy eating and nutritional education to the most vulnerable groups in our community.

SUSPENDED MEALS - HONG KONG (Buy a meal in advance for a hungry person) 
McDonalds Hong Kong



No. 70, Jalan Templer,
46050 Petaling Jaya
Contact: Alice Massang, Tel: +6012 212 2397

The Assumption Church in PJ has their very own soup kitchen on Mondays and Wednesdays. They urgently require committed volunteers to prepare, serve, cook and clean up on soup kitchen days. The kitchen opens at 7.30 am and is ready to serve at 11am. The Assumption Soup Kitchen (ASK) distributes the meals to those in need at the Assumption Family House which is just behind the church.

63 Jalan SS 3/53,
Taman Subang,
47300 Petaling Jaya
Contact: Munirah Hamid, +6012 236 3639

The Pertiwi Soup Kitchen is responsible for feeding 550 – 700 people with the help of their committed volunteers. They distribute pre-packed healthy food and drinks four times a week (Sundays, Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays) in KL. They make 5 stops on their distribution route start which starts at 9 pm on Jalan Tunku Abdul Rahman and ends at Masjid Negara at approximately 11.40 pm.

52-C, Jalan Kemuja,
Off Jalan Bangsar,
59000 Kuala Lumpur
Contact: Pakwan, +6019 267 1285

To volunteer with Dapur Jalanan, join them at 5.00pm every week  on Sunday at Jalan Panggung to serve food to the needy. They accept monetary donations as well as food if you would like to contribute further. Love to cook? You can come a little earlier on Sunday at around 2pm and help the team to prepare meals!

17, Jalan Barat,
55100 Kuala Lumpur
Contact: Justin Cheah, +6010 333 3260

The Kechara Soup Kitchen (KSK) requires volunteers on weekdays to pack and distribute food to the needy in the morning and afternoon. On Saturdays, the team gather at the soup kitchen on Jalan Barat at 9.00 pm to pack and distribute before moving on to their Food Distribution rounds. First-timers who wish to participate in Saturday night rounds are required to attend a compulsory orientation briefing on Saturday at 8.30 pm.

KSK distributes meals every Saturday. Typically, KSK would send out at least 12 teams, each with 15 volunteers, to distribute food at several key locations across the capital including Chow Kit and its surrounding areas. The teams are mobile and are tasked with feeding the homeless at three or four locations before they pack up for home. In one night, KSK feeds at least 800 people.

SUSPENDED MEALS  - MALAYSIA (Buy a meal in advance for a hungry person)


The Facebook Page creates awareness and promotes a collection of Suspended Meal programmes across Malaysia. The mission is  to promote the idea of feeding strangers and sharing kindness with others.

Tel: +60 13-666 6667

Promotes Pay It Forward initiatives by various individuals and groups too

29, Jalan Bukit Desa 5,
Taman Bukit Desa
Kuala Lumpur 58100
Tel: +60 12-816 0003

Charlie's CafĂ© owners (husband and wife) wanted to make a difference in peoples' lives and opened the cafe as a social enterprise with a  heart. "Good Food for a Good Cause", they approach their mission through social service-and-community-first standpoint.  The response to their "Pay It Forward" concept of paying  RM5 as a donation and sticking it to a wall has been overwhelming!


This online charity movement collaborates with restaurants to provide food for the homeless and frequent community centres in the Klang Valley to distribute meals. They are always on the look out for volunteers who can contribute in any way; be it be it monetary donations or man power, all are welcome.

Frontera Sol of Mexico,
18-G-2, Palm Square, Jaya One,
72A, Jalan Universiti,
46200 Petaling Jaya
Tel: +60 12-292 8096

Meals For All was started by Ramesh Vadiveloo, the restauranteur behind Frontera, the Mexican food joint in Jaya One. They accept public donations via online pledges on their Facebook page for suspended meals at RM7 each. Meals For All distributes the food to various soup kitchens in the Klang Valley.





A secular, non-affiliated charity, Willing Hearts is wholly run by volunteers, apart from a handful of staff. It operates a soup kitchen that prepares, cooks and distributes about 5,000 daily meals to over 40 locations island wide, 365 days a year. Beneficiaries include the elderly, the disabled, low income families, children from single parent families or otherwise poverty stricken families, and migrant workers in Singapore.

Willing Hearts is a registered as a society with the Ministry of Home Affairs since February 2005 and as a charity with the Ministry of Social and Family Development since December 2008.


The Soup Kitchen Project was started bya group of friends who have been providing free dinners to recipients living in mostly 1- and 2-room flats in the Jalan Besar/Lavender area every Monday. They currently serve approximately 270 recipients in 6 blocks of flats.

They hope to contribute to making life a little easier for the needy in Singapore.

If you want to be a volunteer with the Soup Kitchen Project team, please contact Tay Shi Ying, the volunteer co-ordinator, via SMS 98423287.

The heart-touching YouTube music video at the top of the post, ONE WORLD ONE SONG, sung by Dionne Warwick and Joe McElderry which was the "Ending Hunger" anthem for World Hunger Day 2013 is like a clarion call from God to each of us. Please do take a few minutes to let the the beautiful lyrics touch your soul!

Sunday, 26 February 2017


The Holy Season of Lent begins this Wednesday (01 March 2017)   - the start of 40 days (excluding Sundays) season of penance, reflection, and fasting which prepares Catholics for Holy Easter Sunday - when Jesus' Resurrection gained redemption and Eternal Life for every one of us.

The Season of Lent only began to be a important part of my Catholic faith journey about 9 years ago. Before that since Lent 1998, I would abstain from meat and fish and not watch television and other personal activities/hobbies i enjoyed- that was the extent of what I did in terms of penance. I thought giving up things I enjoyed 40 days during the Lenten Season was sufficient. I could get back to my normal life. Yes, I was pretty good at compartmentalising my faith life into special seasons.

I would do works of mercy and support charitable missions. My time of personal prayer and reflection was an important priority. Until it dawned on me about 9 years ago, I think, that being a vegetarian was not a difficult choice for me for 46 day from Ash Wednesday until Holy Saturday! Neither was it difficult to give up watching television as I do not own a television in Divine Retreat Centre since 2004. By then, I had been serving full-time here for about four years. The Word of God I heard everyday had slowly penetrated to begin to grow root in my heart and mind. I cannot live as Jesus wants me to by just "being a Catholic who observes the requirements of being a disciple of Jesus for Lenten Season". 

Jesus is asking more of each of us. Jesus said, "Follow me and I will make you fishers of men." (Matthew 4:19) Our Lord  did not ask you and me to only do so for a certain period of the year.  What is more, in my times of personal reflection, the Holy Spirit was shining a light on the Word of God which means so much to me now in how I try to live each day. it is Galatians 5:22-23 - "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law."

Has focusing on this Word of God helped me at a personal level in my faith journey? To say that I have mastered the way to live according to this Word of God would be a lie. But as nine Seasons of Lent has gone by, with gratitude to God, I know that with His Grace, there have been some changes in my heart and life. Something I learnt during a retreat conducted by Rev. Fr. Rex. Pai SJ  for Divine Volunteers in 2013 has helped me tremendously. Fr. Rex said when we were in a difficult situation, we needed to take time to reflect and pray and to ask ourselves this important question, "What would Jesus do if He was in my shoes? 

This one question has helped me to make changes to my daily living significantly. Of course, i still had my personal faults and weaknesses but the way I handled my faults and weakness were being anointed by the Grace of God. For example, I would get angry but instead of losing my temper immediately, I would lock myself in my office for 3 days before saying or doing anything in a knee-jerk reaction even if I was right. These days, I do not feel the need to say anything because I would have cooled down and  started lifting my problem up to God! Often that time of solitude in reflecting on the Word of God from my Bible and writing down the bible verses in my prayer journal spoke to my heart. It helped to soothe my hurt and upset emotions. It had the same effect as contemplating the Face of Jesus as Divine Mercy. No other depiction of Jesus touches my heart as that of Jesus as Divine Mercy. The unconditional Love and Mercy and Gentleness of Jesus's Eyes penetrates my heart and soul in a very special way. If Jesus is merciful to me, why can I not try to be so to others?  It is never easy but the key is never to give up no matter how many times you or I will fail. Jesus is right next to each of us at all times, "Do not be afraid - I am with you!" (Isaiah 43:5)  

The past nine Seasons of Holy Lent based on Galatians 5:22-23 has helped me to realize it is not about what I can personally give up in the way I live that matters to Jesus. It is HOW I choose to live with the Power of His Grace to be His little instrument on earth. I cling to the Promise of God. “My grace is sufficient for you, for POWER is perfected in weakness.” (2 Corinthian 12:9) How I am to the people living around me: my family, loved ones, friends, colleagues, strangers and most importantly to people who test my patience, self-control or who for some reason or another makes me feel irritated. For those of us who wish to live as disciples of Jesus, partiality is not an option - "But if you show partiality, you are committing sin and are convicted by the law as transgressors." (James 2:9) It is why the most important commandment Jesus has given each of us is, This is my commandment, that you love one another, just as I have loved you." (John 15:12)

The Holy Season of Lent is a beautiful sacred season for every Catholic to take a good deep look into how we live our faith in our daily life. It is crucial because we cannot live again a day that has gone by. It is gone forever! We also cannot plan to do something on a future date because we do not know if this very moment we are alive could be our last moment.  Let us live for Jesus in the PRESENT moment! Remember, "And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life? (Matthew 6:27)  

My prayer is for every Catholic including myself to embrace the upcoming Season of Lent as a beautiful period of Grace from God for us to truly renew our hearts, our minds and our actions that we radiate the Light of Jesus to the world at all times. Is the Fruit of the Holy Spirit abundant in our lives? Let us desire with all our hearts to be "rooted in Christ" (cf. Ephesians 13:7)  so that we fulfill the mission God has given us on this earth. 

I hope the inspiring YouTube music video below, "JESUS AT THE CENTRE" by Isaac Houghton and New Breed, will uplift and empower each of us to be Christ-centred not just for the Season of Lent 2017 but for every day of our life!

Tuesday, 17 January 2017


There are some of us who constantly worry about the future - about being financially secure and healthy in our old age and in the other extreme is some who rarely think about what could happen when we reach the golden years of our life. Until two years ago, I was in the latter category. I was constantly asked throughout my fulltime ministry here by family and practically every friend of mine had asked me over the past 12 years similar questions - "What about your future  when you are old? What are you going to do, Susan? You need to start making plans."  To be honest, I was never afraid or had any worries about my future until I fell twice and had terrible thumps on the back of my skull exactly six months apart two years ago. 2015 is a year that made me begin to think of my mortality. The 16 months of recuperation - enforced bed rest, physiotherapy, accupuncture, the terrible pressure on my brain when I worked on the computer (and worse when on my laptop!) were things only I knew what I was going through. For everyone else around me, life was normal. The  miracle was that the Grace of God  helped me to do all my ministry projects. Praise God!

Yet there I was - in the midst of a very busy retreat centre - struggling and that is when fear crept into my heart about my future. I had gone through not remembering some of the volunteers names' who I had known for years! Many of the names came back to me after a few hours or a couple of days later but there was one volunteer who I had known since I first came to this centre, and yet my mind was a complete blank of her name for over 3 months! And I felt uncomfortable asking anyone what her name was. I also kept thinking the day's date was 2 days ahead - and many other little things that kept happening that began to worry me. Perhaps I should have shared these incidents with someone but I did not. Looking back, I think that is when fear of my future crept into my heart especially in the month of December as the New Year beckons.

What is fear? In the Cambridge English Dictionary Fear is defined as:
"an unpleasant emotion or thought that you have when you are frightened or worried by something dangerous, painful, or bad that is happening or might happen."

Fr. Jacob Arimpur V.C. Assistant Director - Divine Retreat Centre
Being a lay person in ministry has its own set of challenges - obviously we do not have the financial security we would have in the secular world - salaries, Provident Funds, company medical coverage, company personal and medical Insurance. In other words, it is difficult to ensure a comfortable "nest egg" for our old age. Of course, we all need to be prudent and have plans but I realized on 31 December this year something very vividly which I had overlooked. It was like as if God was speaking only to me during the Thanksgiving Adoration Service that was being conducted by Fr. Jacob Arimpur V.C.  It was like a thunderbolt  when Fr. Jacob shared so eloquently of God's Providence in each of our lives. Fr Jacob proclaimed - "Let God reveal His Providence - He is the God who is providing for us." Fr. Jacob spoke of all that God had provided for us in 2016 and throughout our lives. Like a bright light bulb switching on in my brain, a very clear thought came to my mind - which I had never thought of before - and brought great peace into my heart about my future. I quickly jotted it in my journal to check if it was accurate later. Thankfully, I quite often have a notebook during homilies which I use for personal reflection. Perhaps, I am a writer at heart. :)  When I put things down on paper, I tend to remember it. The Word of God just sprang forth within me  - "I raise my eyes to the mountains. From where will my help come? My help comes from the Lord the maker of heaven and earth. (Psalm 121:1-2) I thanked the Holy Spirit for reminding me of one of my most favourite psalms - Psalm 121 - THE LORD MY GUARDIAN (NAB)

I had spoken to a priest earlier in the day - because of some issues I was trying to really understand in the Light of God's Wisdom about my life. Was I discerning correctly? My love for the Divine-Potta ministry burns brighter than ever. There are current/new mission initiatives I still feel very passionately to try and do within the Divine-Potta ministry. Yet there was still a confusion if I should listen to my heart or to my head now? I have always usually followed my heart before.

The words of the hymn, "I Have Decided To Follow Jesus" has a very special meaning to me  as I consider it my Call song. It was a verse of this hymn that I had written to my siblings when I first told them that I had given up my career and was going to serve full-time in Divine Retreat Centre - "The world behind me, the Cross before me. No turning back, no turning back." During the New Year Vigil Mass, I remembered that day on 11 October 2004 when I decided in my heart that I would now only serve God from that day onwards  - no turning back to my previous lifestyle. At that time, I was serving here already for 3 months in what I had assumed would be a 6-month stint. Jesus prepared me during my daily prayers and bible reflection so that when I was asked to do so, I had absolutely no doubts even though I never once even thought of being in full-time ministry - not once until I was asked! In fact, I do not even recall asking any questions of what I would do at the retreat centre or of any other questions one would normally ask when moving to a different country!

Fr. Augustine Vallooran V.C., Director - Divine Retreat Centre
Fr. Augustine Vallooran V.C.'s New Year Vigil homily confirmed what had stirred and given me new hope and understanding of God's Call to me. Fr. Augustine shared the following which affirmed and inspired me not just for the New Year 2017 but for my future to ponder on the following wisdom-filled message from God:

"Every blessing has been a gift of God."

""The hymn of Mother Mary (the Magnificat) is both a prophecy and a promise.  'The generations will call me blessed' is a prophecy to Mother Mary. It was a promise too. Mother Mary became blessed because she believed. To believe means to trust. To trust means to let go."

"Mary spent her life  as a handmaid of the Lord." 

"God will inspire us to the ways of the Lord."

"When we surrender the New Year, all the things we do and all the places to go, God will hold us close to Him - if we just want to be His servants and His stewards."

"Accept this gift of the New Year  from the Hands of God." 

After the New Year celebrations with our Divine community, I went back to my office filled with the Joy and Hope of the Lord. I committed my life to Jesus once again  - to let go of my fears and to trust Him with my life. I will do my outmost to spend my life as a handmaid of the Lord. After all, God is holding me close to His Heart - just as He is holding each one of us!

The song, "THE FIGHT SONG"  by Rachel Platten at the the top of this post best sums up what I am inspired  not just for 2017 but for the rest of my life - "Christ's Power is turned on in me!"

Chorus lyrics of the Fight Song:
This is my fight song.
Take back my life song.
Prove I'm alright song.
My power's turned on,
starting right now I'll be strong.
I'll play my fight song.
And I don't really care if no one else believes...
Because I've still got a lot of fight left in me

Saturday, 17 December 2016


Christmas is just 7 days away. I find it a little hard to believe that 2016 is coming to an end in a fortnight's time. How have I lived my life in 2016? What should Christmas signify to me in my life? Christmas has always been special for me since childhood. It always seemed a season of joy and goodwill amongst all people - not just Christians. It seems every Christmas season, people are more caring and giving towards those in need. So Christmas is often seen as a season of giving.

Yet - what is Christmas to a Christian? It is about Christ coming to earth to save us so that we may have Eternal Life in Heaven - God's greatest gift of His Only Son to mankind. It is "Emmanuel - God is with Us" (Matthew 1:23) who we also proclaim as Christ our Light coming into our hearts. So I got to thinking about it this past week: Why do many of us often seem to allow the Light of Christ in us to shine forth brightly to others only during the Season of Christmas? If we are truly living as a real Christian should, then every day is Christmas to us because Christmas is essentially celebrating the day baby Jesus comes into our hearts.

Finally Christmas 2015 together - the Alexanders!

My Mum, Isabelle, and her youngest namesake granddaughter, Isabella from USA

I love Christmas - I know I have always felt differently in my heart this joyful season. There is an extra special dose of love, joy, goodwill, peace and definitely experiencing the Grace  of God in my life through all my loved ones. Last year, after the Christmas Eve Vigil Mass and celebrations here in India, I flew to Penang, Malaysia to also be with my mother and siblings for Christmas dinner. Well, the second part of my flight got delayed but I arrived just in time for dinner and what I had insisted they keep for me from the Christmas lunch too!   The deep feelings I felt being with my Mum, brothers, sisters, sister-in-law, nephew and niece was so profoundly special that I will never forget the incredible joy I still hold deeply in my heart. I cannot remember when so many of us were able to be together for Christmas. The last Christmas I can remember when my entire family was together was when I was 10 years old. Christmas is always about FAMILY - after all, on Christmas night, Mother Mary, St. Joseph and Baby Jesus exemplified how every Christian family should be - holy, joyous and full of love for family and all mankind. 

Christmas is first and foremost about LOVE. It is a time when each of us have to reflect how are we towards our loved ones as a father, a mother, a husband, a wife, a brother, a sister and so forth. Are we so caught up in our careers, in our social activities, our ministries. or in social media that we do not really give of ourselves in terms of sharing and caring for our family or loved ones on a daily basis? Love is about committing our time and truly being present in our relationships with our loved ones. It is not easy these days because if I look at my own family, none of us live in the same city or same country! Yet, in the past few years, my siblings and I have grown closer than we had been since our student days.  We keep in touch daily through a family chat group and so I for one feel the love we have for each other in a more tangible way. We do our best to have an annual family get-together with my Mum. It is also easier to keep in touch with friends too through Facebook, whatsapp and other social media platforms. More importantly, now at any time, as friends and family of Christ, we can pray and intercede for each other's petitions and prayer requests essentially uniting our prayers in an international prayer network . But even to keep in contact, we must be consciously aware that nothing takes the place of personal touch or personal time. A phone call or a visit can truly uplift your loved ones especially your grandparents, elderly parents and family members. 

Except for last Christmas, I had spent the 12 previous Christmas here in Divine Retreat Centre. It was the time I missed my family and friends the most - for I always loved Christmas before because of the the joy of being firstly with my parents and loved ones. The world is moving at such a fast pace.  It is easy to forget or tell ourselves we will spend time the following week but we do not get around to visiting our loved ones or people we know who are elderly, housebound, a strugglig widow/widower, a single parent, children from broken families, the poor, or the sick. If we truly took a good look around us, God has placed so many people around us to whom we could and should share Christ's Love with. This Christmas, I pray that the Love of Christ in me will sensitize me to be more conscious of every person in need who I meet. Even a rich person with no faith in God and hence no hope or meaning in life can be "poorer" and in greater need to know Jesus than a person who is poor materially but filled with love and trust in Him. Yes, it will take time and effort and it can seem thankless because our efforts could be rejected. Yet, Jesus teaches us one thing through His Life until His Resurrection. Jesus never gave up on any of us. That is true example of "Agape" Love - selfless, sacrificial and unconditional love. 

How joyous my life would be if Christ's Love radiates in a tangible manner every day of the year to all my loved ones, my Divine Family members, my ministry friends in different countries as we serve God together and to all those in need esp our Divine family members in our Divine Charitable Homes. It is through them I am always reminded how blessed my life is. I do not ever want to have an indifferent or forgetful heart for sisters and brothers of mine who are marginalized in the world and have found love, peace and dignity in their lives through the love and care by the Vincentian Fathers of Divine Retreat Centre.   If I can take action or say some words that will bring joy and comfort to them, I pray for the courage and commitment to do so.  I pray for the Grace of God to be His Hands and His Feet. Most of all, to be able to say a little prayer for those Jesus brings into my life each day. This is my Christmas gift to Jesus this year - to consciously say a little prayer each day for every person I come in contact with. It could be just one line. "Fill ______'s heart with your Holy Spirit, Lord."

Christmas is about Hope - without Jesus in our lives,  we will easily fall into despair. How can we always have the Hope of Christ in us? I believe it is when we give God the central place in our life. There can be no higher form of worship than to receive the Holy Eucharist every day. To do so, we have to also partake in the Sacrament of Reconciliation (preferably at least once a month and not just once a year. I for one, cannot remember my sins committed over a year!). Thus, our lives will be grace-filled. Hence, together with our daily personal prayer time, even in our most difficult days, we will find our Strength and Hope in Jesus.

Joy to the World the Lord has Come! Jesus our Saviour is our True Joy - the blessed  Gift of Christmas! Do you every wonder how after New Year, our lives go back to the normal grind of our daily living? Of course, it is not possible, to be full of joy, love and goodwill like we usually experience during the Christmas season. However, do you know of persons who personifies Christ' Joy to you? I know of a few priests who radiate Christ' Joy all the time. People feel touched and blessed even having just a few minutes with them. Seeing the joy in their faces and the profound impact the joy they felt in the presence of the priest makes a huge difference for they often share they truly experienced the Love of Christ.  After serving in ministry over 12 years here, I realize that the Inner Joy of Christ can only radiate from us when our faith is  built on firm foundation - that our lives are firmly rooted on the Word of God. True Joy cannot be alive in our hearts any other way. This Christmas I also pray for all my loved ones, friends and for myself that we will seek for this Joy not just in the season of Christmas but for all our lives.   If people can see the Joy of Christ in us, they will want to know our God who can give us this amazing grace! 

The Angel's message on the first Christmas night when Baby Jesus was born was to the shepherds - "Do not  be afraid; for behold, I proclaim to you good news of great joy that will be for all people.For today in the city of David a saviour has been born for you who is the Messiah and Lord." (Luke 2:10-11) This is the everlasting Christmas message every human being should strive for. Jesus did not come to earth to save just the Christians - He came to save every single human being.  What can each of us do to spread the Peace of Jesus' to everyone around us? Well, first, I have to find the Peace of Christ within me - for with Christ's Peace, I can do all things in His Name! I will have no fear. The Word of God gives each of us this beautiful Promise - "Perfect love has no fear." (1 John 3:18) Jesus is the Perfect Love.When we have the ultimate Grace of Christmas - Jesus in our hearts every moment of of our lives - the world will finally attain the Peace that Jesus our Saviour came to give us on earth. 

I hope the touching Christmas YouTube music video below - "LET THIS CHRISTMAS BE (CHRIST IN ME) by Toby Baxley warms your heart as  it did mine.

Wishing my family and loved ones, my Divine family, Friends of Divine, 
ex-colleagues, childhood pals, and all who have touched and enriched my life ...

May our world be filled with peace on earth and goodwill to all mankind!

Saturday, 22 October 2016


We often ponder more deeply about the lyrics of the hymns that are sung during retreats more than when we attend Holy Mass in our church in our own parishes. At least, I have often heard these comments from retreatants and even felt so myself before!

 Well, that is not surprising. After all, we are allowing the Word of God to take root in our hearts when we deeply immerse our hearts and mind into the retreat during Praise & Worship sessions, talks, Holy Mass and Adoration services on God's Word - our uninterrupted special time of being consciously aware of God's True Presence in our lives.

Until I experienced my first retreat, my relationship with God was actually rather stunted. It was more knowing of Jesus but not experiencing the intimacy of a real relationship with Him. I was really into being in control of my life and the future I had planned for myself. Yes, I admit, I am someone who used to have 1-year, 3-years and 5-years goals in life since my college days and I was very serious about achieving these goals.  All these goals for my finite life here on earth. I had not realized that I am only a pilgrim on earth for my eternal home is Heaven! Last night, I was reading an online article about Bill Gates, the founder of Microsoft. It seems every minute of his day is meticulously planned - even to the time it would take for a photo-shoot of shaking hands with a head of state. He did not like to waste a minute of his time. Of course most of us are not to that extreme but are we all not guilty of wanting to be in control in every aspect of our finite life if that is possible? Yet how little time and effort we "invest" to ensure our Eternal Life in Heaven. 

I am now in my 12th year of saying "YES" to fulltime ministry - a really important milestone for someone who never even dreamt of being involved in a weekly church ministry. My 12th Anniversary was on 11th October 2016.

Ministry life is not all joy and plain sailing. I have had people tell me many time how "lucky" I am that I am not working in the secular world. Well, all I can say is that perhaps you need to experience one whole year in my ministry life first! Every vocation in life, be it as a priest, husband, wife, businessperson, teacher, father or mother has its own challenges - the same goes for those in mission fields. As human beings, we have relationships with families and loved ones, illnesses and difficult problems in life that seem unresolved for years. At times, the more we pray, the more silent God seems. Have you wondered where is God in the painful and difficult moments of your lives? I certainly have.

In the past  6 years or so, I have really felt the Silence of God in a certain aspect of my life - to the point that that I was unable to do something I had always loved in my ministry - writing. In fact, it seemed like there was a huge mental block in my mind and emotional block in my heart that nearly completely stifled my creative desire these past 2 years to write and work on other creative inspirations to proclaim God's Message of Hope and Love. I had to really struggle to do so.  In my personal life, it seems like a long period of the "dark night of the soul" that St. John the Cross spoke  about. Why is God silent? How much more can my loved ones and I take of the situation? What if the worst fears became a reality? In times of great trials, we are tested the most in our faith. 

Did I want to give up on my fulltime ministry life?  I give thanks to Jesus that it was not something I thought about. The Call of God is hard to explain for it feels that your heart is no longer your own - it is for Jesus! Yet I had questions about my faith - the doubts and fears I was having because it involved someone I loved so much and if any of my decisions were a factor. The despair I would feel. the worries and emotional toll on my loved ones and on myself. Why is God allowing this situation to get worse?

Recently I spoke to a priest. I had not planned on it but it just came out of me and I actually wept as I spoke. The priest did not say much but I truly felt then the overpowering Comfort and Love of Jesus enveloping me - like I was in Jesus' Embrace. The priest told me to continue to pray for Jesus will answer our prayers. At that point, I realized one important point. I was being defeated because I already assumed the worst would happen. I had forgotten that my God, Jesus, is the Lord of Miracles and Hope! In his wisdom-filled words, the priest brought great solace to my heart.

Was the so-called Silence of God these past 6 years a waste? As I spent more personal time in prayer and meditation, the Holy Spirit revealed something to me. God in His Silence was actually drawing me closer to Him and He was also drawing my loved ones and me closer to Him and to each other. Jesus was helping me to surrender completely - to make Him the Centre of my life. It was in these times of silence, I turned to God's Word to find strength. It was in finding great peace when the priest told me yesterday not to look at my doubts and fears in these difficult years as my mistakes but rather as a weakness - a very understandable one as it involves a much loved person. God understands that even in ministry, our loved ones are very important to us.  .

The reason I spoke to the priest briefly yesterday was to share that when I went back to my office after the first meeting, I was prompted to reflect on the Book of Job - to read one chapter a day and to read about Elijah. More importantly on that day, in His Silence, Jesus revealed Himself to me through the following during my prayers and reflection:

"My son, hold fast to your duty, busy yourself with it, grow old while doing your task. Admire not how sinners live, but trust in the LORD and wait for his light; 
For it is easy with the LORD suddenly in an instant, to make a poor man rich. 
God’s blessing is the lot of the just  man and in due time his hopes bear fruit."
(Sirach 11:20-22)

"It is the LORD who marches before you; he will be with you and will never fail you 
or forsake you. So do not fear or be dismayed."
(Deuteronomy 31:8)

"He who submits himself to God in all things is certain that whatever men say 
or do against him will always turn to his advantage."
Saint Vincent de Paul
 Saint of the Day   (Laudate App)

I had asked the priest, "Why is God so silent?" In less than an hour, after experiencing Jesus' Loving Embrace, our Lord in His Silence drew me close to Him and spoke to me His Word. that showed me beyond a doubt that I am never alone. Jesus is always in my heart and with me - that His Grace is all I would ever need in my life and He will make all things good. For my journey to my Eternal Home in Heaven, I needed to also experience "the dark night of the soul." it is not about me being able to control what happens in my life on earth but for me to learn to trust that Jesus  is the One who was, is and will always be in control of my life - through His tangible actions and even in His Holy Silence! 

Well, the blessed outcome is not that my difficult family problem has been resolved but that my heart and mind feels peace and that very night, I created my first Christian reflection music video after two years. As you would have all noticed, I have written a post today too! 

The beautiful music video above - "GOD OF SILENCE" composed by a Jesuit priest Fr. Manoling Francisco SJ of Bukas Palad Ministry, Philippines is truly touching! I heard it the first time after I spoke to  the priest. For me, it was a sign from Jesus that He is always close to me. Praise God! Please do take a few minutes to experience Jesus' Presence in the stillness of your heart.


*****Details about Bukas Palad Ministry, Philippines*****
The Bukas Palad Music Ministry (Filipino for "generous"; literally, "open palm") is a Roman Catholic contemporary worship musical group in the Philippines that composes, records, and performs original religious music. Since 1986, Bukas Palad has recorded over a dozen albums with the Jesuit Music Ministry of Jesuit Communications Foundation, a ministry of the Philippine Province of the Society of Jesus, based in Ateneo de Manila University. The group has performed in over a hundred solo concerts across the country and overseas in Japan, Hong Kong, the United States, and Canada.